bettygerschwin

i guess i only claim to be nice.

2010-03-11T18:47:38Z

Hello livejournal. Been a long time, eh? A lot has changed. Well for starts. december of 2006 i started dating one of the most wonderful men i had ever met, a person who brought out the best in me. After a while we even had plans to be married someday. Many months,holidays and broken promises had passed before I realized that i was being used by him and his mother for not only my car, but my patience and overall faith in humanity..or naivety. I then confronted said other and then problems therefore ensued. Lending money without being pair back. Week after week. something going wrong. bills piling up, i was/still am, drowning in debt from this person. And he has shown no remorse or even the ability to fix anything he had damaged. including me. We've been fighting nonstop for the past 2 years of our relationship, and I have been doing everything in my power to help him get on his feet, and improve his own life, when my own feelings and goals were put on the back burner. Sure there were a lot of good days, a lot of happy times. but they were becoming increasingly few and far between. And when your significant other shows no regard for anything, a "i don't care about anything" attitude/overall mentality. then how am i supposed to be in a relationship with someone who doesn't care about me, and only shows that he does after we fight and he realizes for a quick second how much different his life would be without me. So i left for a week or . But i made the biggest mistake. I came back because i genuinely missed him and love him and wanted to be there for him. He did the usual expected, said he was sorry for everything and said he would make it all better. I believed it. A few days passed, things were good, he actually showed improvement. We went out on a date. which we haven't done in years. We actually had some sex. which was all for me, because he never cared to have sex with me most of the time except in the first year of our relationship. which was a major blow to my dignity, throwing myself at someone that wanted nothing to do with me, but i'm getting side tracked. Things were good for a week or so. then The same old shit was happening all over again. "can i borrow some money i swear ill pay you back" and i did one of the dumbest things ever, i lent it to him. but then the next day he was hounding me to buy him a pack of ciggys when i gave him a hundred and something dollars the previous evening. and then proceeded to be an asshole, and almost kill us twice while i was driving him to work. (grabbing the steering wheel while i was driving trying to kill us and such), then by him jumping out of the moving car. and then repeatedly calling me to pick him up, and that "you're really gonna make me walk all the way home" i don't know who he is anymore. i could slap a label like junkie, or scumbag, or just plain bat shit crazy, but sadly none of those define the actual behavior or actions that he has exhibited without a second thought. i do love him. and i finally left for good. I do hope he gets his shit together because i do love him so much. But i could not put myself in that sort of situation anymore, i had seen it too many times. and it is true. people don't change. only if they want to. but to him. he is perfect. there isn't a single thing he would change. He was a lot of fun. but there are times in life that you do have to be serious. and you do have to act like an adult, even if you do not believe that you should have to. but nobody is going to hold his hand now. he is going to sink or swim. and i really do hope he swims. because i would consider dating him again if he had his own place, his own car, and no more drug problem. but those things take time, and i feel like i was just facilitating it all by being the only adult in the household, even though he is 4 years older than me you'd think experience would be the best thing to learn from. but evidently not. 4 years. wasted. but i don't regret any of the good times. and i will always love him for those.

sicky

2006-06-04T02:01:21Z

i was in the hospital this week, for 3 days and 2 nights got out on friday afternoon, sick. someone got me sick and my body basically multiplied whatever bacteria it was admitted, and it FUCKED MY SHIT ALLLLL UP , but i'm almost better now, although i'd rather be in the hospital than home sick. wierd, i know, but i love the hospital

quizzes

2006-01-18T17:34:13Z

Your Stipper Song Is

Master and Servant by Depeche Mode

"Theres a new game

We like to play you see

A game with added reality

You treat me like a dog

Get me down on my knees"

Yawn, dancing is so boring without a little spice.

What Song Should You Strip To?

On Average, You Would Sell Out For

$271,741

At What Price Would You Sell Out?

hahahaah this one was funny

You're An Alcoholic

Time to go back to step one.

What Kind of Drunk Are You?

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Jittery Chief.

Where You Lived: Germany.

How You Died: Dysentery.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

You are a Black Coffee

At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable

At your worst, you are: cheap and angsty

You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it

Your caffeine addiction level: high

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

You Are 70% "Average American"

You are average because you live within three miles of McDonalds.

You are not average since you've known your best friend for less than ten years.

How "Average American" Are You?

Your IQ Is 95

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Average

Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

^wtf that one didn't even make any sense.^

You are Bettie Page

Girl next door with a wild streak
You're a famous beauty - with unique look
And the people like you are cultish about it

What Famous Pinup Are You?

abuser

2005-11-16T02:25:51Z

just kill me please, before i get into any more shit
i was suprised he came to get me. and he wasn't mad. that was the strangest part
i have such a fucking headache right now

WOW! AN UPDATE!

2005-11-08T02:46:33Z

yeah so my mom isn't pregnant anymore, she had the babies last week, and she fractured her pelvis, for those of you that don't know what this means, i will clarify it for you. my mother fracturing her pelvis means that laura doesn't get to do anything for the next 2+ months because i'm supposed to take care of her, which is torture. i can't sit around all day listening to those fucking babies screaming their heads off. its too much. i'm not the baby kind of person, i fucking hate babies. and doug is here, so i don't get why i have to be here, that piece of shit can take some responsibility for his goddamned kids, they're not my kids, i didnt get my mother pregnant, so i don't see why i have to take care of everything, and my grandmother wants to pay me $50/week, so help out, no fucking way. i'm not going to be paid off by my grandmother so i can help my useless mother. and i told her tonight that i wanted to move back in with my dad, because he'll actually be able to help me further my life, instead of stunting it, and she got all belligerent, and basically she doesn't want me to leave because then she won't get money anymore, and she won't have someone to take care of her,

aggravation. mucho aggravation. and i don't have a bed until next tuesday, when g-ma leaves for AZ so i get to sleep in the living room for the next week. so im thinking i want to go somewhere this week while i still can.

i need to finish school. and these people are doing nothing but dragging me down with them. and its fucked. no matter what i do its always a catch 22

i am fucked. why bother?

we are the mustaches the beatles grew when they dropped acid

2005-09-27T00:44:36Z

i am bored.

therefore i update my livejournal.

i went to school today.

my grandmother is coming here on the 4th.

my eye is itchy.

going to school at night kind of sucks.

SublimeSk8music: have it mention how amazing i am

happy? lol

uhn tiss uhn tiss uhn tiss

i should go to the gym.

i think i will go.

in like 15 minutes.

i need to hang out with people this weekend. and get massively fucked

up

i am so fucking bored it is making me insane

go home. get stoned

2005-08-26T20:05:26Z

i'm bored, last night katie picked me up and we played pool with fatboy in wally world, then we went to wal*mart, and smoked, then we drove down to fatboy's and he gave kate some free bud. (THAT WAS SOME RIDICULOUS HAZE) then we dropped him off at stagedoor, and then me and k8 smoked again, lol, damn we smoked a lot last night, but it was great

WOO

i'm so fucking bored. i want to get completely wasted this weekend. i'm going to make that a goal. probably won't accomplish it, but a girl needs to have goals in her life. dammit!

see you in hell

2005-08-08T23:15:08Z

dope was fun
bloodhound gang was amazing. it was one of the most entertaining shows i have ever seen. definitely fucking awesome. and simon sinister was pretty good too. funny as fuck
my birthday couldn't have gone any worse, except for the cake. that worked out as planned. thats about it

now that psychopath is in the hospital, getting moved up to the psych ward within the next week or two. seriously. if he had started any more shit than he already did, i would have killed him myself.
so far he has ruined every single holiday or special occasion for the past year or two for my mother, and just about 8 months for me too.

what a pussy, if you're going to kill yourself,

do it.

be a man

quit being such a faggot

and don't do it on my birthday either.

http://artpad.art.com/?ikxf518l1p0

really now

2005-07-13T05:40:44Z

You're Madagascar!

Lots of people don't really know anything about you, making you
buried treasure of the rarest kind. You love nature, and could get lost in it
whenever possible. You're remote and exotic, and the few people who know you
value whatever they share with you a great deal. For some reason, you really
like the word "lemur".
Take
the Country Quiz at the Blue Pyramid

pirates rule!

You're a Cobra!

With front teeth just a little longer than average and a strange way
of bobbing your head back and forth, you've always seemed a tiny bit menacing to
others. You can't help these minor physical trends, but you do have this nasty
habit of sneaking up on people and scaring the stuffing out of them as well. You've
always been fascinated by India and feel like people would appreciate you more
there. On the plus side, you do everything you can to help maintain others' health
insurance benefits.

Take the Animal Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

You're Virginia!

Part of the old school, you like both historical sites and crazy
amusement parks. You like saying the word Commonwealth but couldn't really explain the
concept or how it applies to your life. You like five-sided shapes, five-cent pieces,
and possibly anything else having to do with the number five. Every now and then, you
discard chaff from yourself that you just don't feel you need. And since you've been
wondering... yes, there is a Santa Claus.

Take the State Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

You're Cat's Cradle!

by Kurt Vonnegut

You believe quite firmly that free will deserted you long ago and far
away. As a result, it's hard to take responsibility for anything. Even though you show
great potential as a leader of a small 3rd world country, the choices are all made ahead
of time. You're rather fond of games involving string. Your fear of nuclear weaponry is
trumped only by your fear of ice.

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

thingy stolen from stouts eljay

2005-07-08T03:44:11Z

Put an X in the ones that you've seen
(x)Napoleon Dynamite
(x)Saw
(x)White Noise
(x)White Oleander
(x)Anger Management
(x)50 First Dates
(x)Jason X
(x)Scream
(x)Scream 2
(x)Scream 3
(x)Scary Movie
(x)Scary Movie 2
(x)Scary Movie 3
(x)American Pie
(x)American Pie 2
(x)American Wedding
(x)Harry Potter
(x)Harry Potter 2
(x)Harry Potter 3
(x)Resident Evil I
(x)Resident Evil 2
(x)The Wedding Singer
( )Little Black Book
(x)The Village
(x)Donnie Darko
(x)Lilo & Stitch
(x)Finding Nemo
(x)Finding Neverland
(x)13 Ghosts
(x)Signs
(x)The Grinch
(x)Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( )White Chicks
( )Butterfly Effect
( )Thirteen going on 30
( ) I,Robot
(x)Dodgeball
(x)Universal Soldier
(x)A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x)Along Came A Spider
(x)Deep impact
(x)KingPin
(x)Never Been Kissed
(x)Meet The Parents
(x)Meet The Fockers
(x)Eight Crazy Nights
( )A Cinderella Story
( )The Terminal
( )The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( )Passport to Paris
(x)Dumb & Dumber
( )Dumb & Dumberer
(x)Final Destination- meh
(x)Final Destination 2- hilarious
(x)Halloween
(x)The Ring
(x)The Ring 2
(x)Harold & Kumar go to White Castle
(x)Practical Magic
(x)Chicago
(x)Ghost Ship
(x)From Hell
(x)Hellboy
(x)Secret Window- gag
(x)I Am Sam
(x)The Whole Nine Yards
(x)The Whole Ten Yards
(x)The Day After Tomorrow
(x)Child's Play
(x)Bride of Chucky
( )Seed of Chucky
(x)Ten Things I Hate About You
(x)Just Married
(x)Gothika
(x)A Nightmare on Elm Street
(x)Sixteen Candles
(x)Bad Boys 1
(x)Bad Boys 2
(x)Joy Ride
(x)Seven (SE7EN)
(x)Oceans Eleven
( )Oceans Twelve
(x)Identity
( )Lone Star
(x)Bedazzled
(x)Predator I
(x)Predator II
(x)Independence Day
( )Cujo
(x)A Bronx Tale
(x)Darkness Falls
(x)The Phantom of the Opera
(x)ET
(x)Children of the Corn
( )My Boss' Daughter
(x)Maid in Manhattan
(x)Enough
( )Frailty
( )Best Bet
(x)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x)She's All That
( )Calendar Girls
(x)Sideways
(x)Mars Attacks
(x)Event Horizon
(x)Ever after
(x)Forrest Gump
( )Big Trouble in Little China
(x)X-men 1
(x)X2 X-men United
( )Jeepers Creepers
( )Jeepers Creepers 2
(x)Catch Me If You Can
(x)The Others
(x)Freaky Friday
(x)Reign of Fire
(x)Cruel Intentions
(x)Cruel Intentions 2
(x)The Hot Chick
(x)Swimfan
( )Miracle
(x)Old School
(x)Shallow Hal
( )Ray
( )The Notebook
( )K-Pax
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
( )A Walk to Remember
( )Boogeyman
( )Hitch
( )Back Door Sluts 9
(X)The fifth Element
( )Star Wars Episode I
( )Star Wars Episode II
( )Star Wars Episode III
( )Star Wars Episode IV
( )Star Wars Episode V
( )Star wars Episode VI
( )Troop Beverly Hills
( )Swimming with Sharks
(x)Trainspotting
( )People Under the Stairs
( )Blue Velvet
(x)Sound of music
(x)Parent Trap
(x)The Burbs
(x)SLC Punk
(x)Meet Joe Black
( )Wild girls
(x)A Clockwork Orange
( )The Order
( )Clock Stoppers
(x)Scooby Doo
( )Scooby Doo 2: Monster's Unleashed
(x)Spiderman
(x)Spiderman 2
(x)Sweet home Alabama
(x)Amelie
(x)Mean Girls
(x)Shrek
(x)Shrek 2
( )The Incredibles
(x)Monsters, Inc.
(x)Collateral
(x)The Fast & The Furious
(x)2 Fast 2 Furious
( )Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
( )Closer
(x)The Sixth Sense
(x)Artificial Intelligence
(x)Love actually
( )Shutter
(x)Ella Enchanted
(x)Princess Diaries 1
( )Princess Diaries 2
(x)The Graduate
( )Constantine
( )Million Dollar Baby
(x)What about Bob?
(x)Ground Hog Day
(x)Zoolander
(x)Titanic
(x)Pirates Of the Caribbean
(x)Gone with the Wind
(x)Remember the Titans
(x)The Replacements
(x)October Sky
(x)Life is Beautiful
(x)It's a Wonderful Life
(x)The Goonies
(x)Corky Romano
(x)Blue Crush
( )Harold and Maude
(x)The Godfather
(x)The Godfather 2
(x)The Godfather 3
(x)Aladdin
(x)The Lion King
(x)Men In Black
(x)Men In Black 2
(x)Ms. Congeniality
( )Ms. Congeniality 2
( )Birth
(x)Nightmare Before Christmas
(x)Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
(x)Garden State
(x)Shaun of the Dead
(x)Night of the Living Dead
( )Day of the Dead
(x)Dawn of the Dead
( )SIN CITY
( )War of the worlds

bettygerschwin @ 2005-07-06T17:55:00

2005-07-06T22:02:28Z

i'm sitting here hanging out with sam. and i think i'm really really moving back to east haven. because meriden sucks
YEAH!!!!!!!WOOOO1!!"$32I3'14[P34
E-WER!!!!!

bettygerschwin @ 2005-04-04T20:21:00

2005-04-05T00:23:09Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Laura
Birthday:	08-06-88
Birthplace:	new haven
Current Location:	meriden
Eye Color:	green/blue
Hair Color:	right now its a faded, almost cinnamon color
Height:	5'5"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	rightyy
Your Heritage:	polish,italian, english, irish, scottish, german,
The Shoes You Wore Today:	cons
Your Weakness:	a friend of mine, we call her mary jane
Your Fears:	disappointing the people i actually care about
Your Perfect Pizza:	thin crust, lots of sauce, no cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	go to school, or get a job
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	mhm
Thoughts First Waking Up:	damn. where did my clothes go? and how did i get here?
Your Best Physical Feature:	i actually like my boobz
Your Bedtime:	whenever i pass out
Your Most Missed Memory:	being happy
Pepsi or Coke:	pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	md
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappiccino
Do you Smoke:	yes
Do you Swear:	i'm not a religious person
Do you Sing:	only in the shower
Do you Shower Daily:	i hope so
Have you Been in Love:	no, but i'm sure i thought it was at one point
Do you want to go to College:	not sure. maybe, maybe not, wherever this life takes me i'll go
Do you want to get Married:	yes
Do you belive in yourself:	for the most part, but i also know my limits
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no
Do you think you are Attractive:	no
Are you a Health Freak:	haha, no, but i do go to the gym a few times a week
Do you get along with your Parents:	half of them
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yes
Do you play an Instrument:	i guess, but i haven't picked it up in like a month
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes ma'am
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	been on? i have done some, but i don't think i've ever "been on" drugs
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yesterday
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no. ew.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	yes
Ever been Drunk:	yes. many a time
Ever been called a Tease:	yes
Ever been Beaten up:	never
Ever Shoplifted:	yes, doesn't that count as stealing something?
How do you want to Die:	in some freak accident that will be on the news, or an overdose, that'd be cool too
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	older
What country would you most like to Visit:	hah...amsterdam......that would be one place....
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	hazel
Favourite Hair Color:	black
Short or Long Hair:	short
Height:	tall
Weight:	doesn't matter
Best Clothing Style:	dirty
Number of Drugs I have taken:	haha...i'd rather not go there...
Number of CDs I own:	asstons
Number of Piercings:	only my ears
Number of Tattoos:	none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	0
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

bettygerschwin @ 2005-03-28T16:27:00

2005-03-28T21:27:28Z

i'm probably starting on wed. gonna bring all my books back to east haven tomorrow morning, woo. thats gonna suck. but at least i'm getting it out of the way i guess. woot.

in case you haven't heard mom's pregnant. we just found out today that its not just 1 baby, but twins. thats wild. i'm excited for her, but at the same time, i'm a little scared as to what the future will hold when they are born and how much harder everything is going to be with TWO babies. thats nuts. but what can ya do.

i miss everyone so much and i hate being away from everybody so much, it sucks. but my new school looks promising and all that good stuff, although it doesn't have as much to offer as my old school. but the people there seem nice, and i think i'm going to do okay.

hmm....what else? ::lights cigarette::

well.. i think thats all for today. more to come!

the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had

2005-03-03T15:40:13Z

so yeah...i'm in meriden now. and i don't know what i'm going to do about school. i'm so confused. either go to school here in meriden, or drop out and get a job and/or go to adult ed, if they even have that here, i don't even know. everything is always up in the air and i hate that. and then i'm supposed to make decisions about something i don't even know what my choices are. what the fuck. i fucking hate this. and meanwhile i keep thinking about sarah, and how she has to be pushed around and moved around so goddamned much, i wish that i could just make everything work and everything and everyone to just tolerate each other and get along, but thats fucking impossible, and my mom wants sarah to come and live with us, but she doesn't know yet, because of the current circumstances, and i just hate it, i wish that i could just take her and keep her here with us. i miss her so much, and i hate that she gets fucked because nobody is there.
and being here, away from everything and everyone.

get it together

2005-02-13T03:46:56Z

why does this...everything...have to be so...impossible?

bettygerschwin @ 2005-01-26T20:37:00

2005-01-27T01:48:40Z

You bold the ones that are true about you and then you add 3 things at the end.

01. I have a cell phone.
02. I'm obsessed with high heels.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love hoop earrings.
06. I am a libra
07. I love beer.
09. I can't live without lip gloss.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in Purgatory for 3 months. (more like a year)
12. I spend money I don't have.
13. I'll be in college forever.
14. I've seen Jason Mraz.
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
18. I have more then a couple of horrible memories.
19. I am addicted to Lizzie McGuire.
20. I am a person.
21. My first kiss was when I was 18.
22. I start film school in February.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. My dreams are bizarre.
27. One of my close friends is gay.
28. I have way too many purses.
29. I've seen 'Fight Club' at least 45 times.
30. I usually dress how I feel that day.
31. I love 'Sex and the City'.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. I love winter.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I'm afraid of flying.
40. I hate drama.
41. I am addicted to 'The O.C.'
42. I love my hair.
43. I never fight with my parents.
44. I love the beach.
45. I have never had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. II want to go to Greece.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I am too forgiving.
69. I have a horrible sense of direction.
70. I secretly love(d) high school.
71. I have a talent of sweet-talking my way out of things.
72. I'm a daddy's girl.
73. I love kisses on the forehead
74. I'm Hungarian
75. I love the color pink.
76. I love to sew.
77. I have green eyes.
78. I love the Olsen Twins.
79. I played soccer for 14 years.

80. I become stressed easily
81. I hate liars.
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Paul Walker is my dream guy.
84. I love the smell of asphalt after it's rained.
85. I love my family.
86. I hate needles.
87. I am a perfectionist.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
90. I like to knit
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
92. I can be quite selfish.
93. I still act like a little kid
94. I despise dishonesty.
95. I love pictures.
96. I love music.
97. I wish I were more motivated when it comes to school.
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone.
101. I don't want to be married.
102. I hate the fact that my size 10 jeans are tight.
103. I've never watched "Sex and the City" and I don't really care if I do.
104. I really don't want to add three things to this list.
105. So I won't.
106. I love Harry Potter.
107. I am patient
108. I like bunnies
109. I often think before I speak and then regret it.
110. I love summer.
111. I miss my friends who I haven't seen for a while.
112. I have lived in New Mexico
113. I love water
114. There are criminals in my family.
115. The internet is my other home.
116. I think typing is fun.
117. I want to be famous one day.
118. Barbie is soooo cool! Isn't she?
119. Isn't dark curly hair just adorable?
120. I'm left handed.
121. I love my best friend.
122. I straighten my hair everyday
123. ive never been out of the country
124. i love reading books on the hammock
125. i live for HOOOOT bubble baths
126. i hate how summer is the shortest season
127. I want to move to California when I graduate highschool and be a professional beachbum/college kid
128. I love going to shows at local music clubs
129. I love sitting on my roof, talking on the phone
130. i love horses
131. i love running
132. i love boys
133. i hate being lonely
134. i love my nextel
135. i have a new found obsession with The Spill Canvas
136. i hate working
137. i hate people who gossip constantantly
138. i cant wait to go tanning today
139. I love daisies.
140. I have a scary obsession with Law and Order.
141. I wish I knew exactly what I wanted.
142. Im in love with One Tree Hill. can't control my emotions.

143. I miss BOB, TOM and KEVY

144. cant wait for friday

145. i heart someone

146. i need medication

147. i miss my brother

148. i love ska

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2005-01-27T00:21:15Z

sam wanted me to update my journals, and to say how much i love her, lol

well sam, this is for you:

sam is the coolest <3 x 1,000,000

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in other news

life still sucks with out bob :(

i was thinking the other night, about a lot of things, especially how much i've been growing apart from a lot of my friends. like people who were my best friends years ago, we said that we'd never be separated, but now we don't even talk anymore. thats some shit right there. one of my friends that i've known most of my life, sent me a letter last week, and when i read it i was really sort of mad at how i just didn't put the effort in to communicate with her more to share what was going on in my life. maybe i was just scared that our lives were just taking two very different paths that would inevitably not cross again, but i think i was wrong, so i'm going to make some changes from now on to my life.

whether or not it's the right thing to do, i don't care, just another chapter in the book

i should really write a book about my life. i think it would be awesome

this weekend i want to do something, and i'm going to or else

bettygerschwin @ 2005-01-14T14:37:00

2005-01-14T19:45:53Z

You scored as Stoner.

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Stoner

81%

Punk/Rebel

75%

Goth

63%

Loner

63%

Drama nerd

44%

Geek

38%

Ghetto gangsta

19%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

13%

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im totally not a stoner..i swear...i never laughed so hard

bettygerschwin @ 2005-01-01T12:25:00

2005-01-01T17:29:14Z

Your Boobies' Names Are: Betty and Veronica

Get your own Boobie Names

bettygerschwin @ 2005-01-01T12:15:00

2005-01-01T17:19:36Z

happy new year! this year was fucked up, and crazy, and thats how i ended it! and it RULED

bettygerschwin @ 2004-12-20T18:45:00

2004-12-20T23:49:14Z

christmas is in 5 days whaaaat?

bettygerschwin @ 2004-12-18T12:01:00

2004-12-18T17:08:44Z

last night was entertaining. har. got all sorts of messed up. lol

bettygerschwin @ 2004-12-13T16:14:00

2004-12-13T21:19:25Z

this weekend was fucking awesome.

bettygerschwin @ 2004-11-22T16:24:00

2004-11-22T21:37:58Z

school today was harsh. i think i was high off the fumes or something, and i was madd tired all day i was falling asleep walking down the hallway. ugh

but i did my english paper while i was in english, hah..and handed it in on time! beat that shit
did my history project in lunch and dutro's. i really hate my group in that class. i want to kill scott at least 37 times each class. and that goddamned music. all i hear around me is the fucking mortal combat soundtrack, and drowning pool - step up. i never want to hear any of those again. and if i ever to i will kill whoever puts them on.

tomorrow's the last full day this week i need cigarettes.

thanksgiving woo. i hate being pressured into going to peoples houses that i don't like to have dinner with them. seriously fuck off dude

im going to grammas for thursday. woo, dad wanted us to go to felicia's parents house, and i told him to fuck off, and tonight he wanted me and sarah to go to felicia's friends house for dinner, but neglected to tell us about it or even ask until about an hour ago, and then he was getting all pissy when we didn't want to go, so i also told him to shove it

what a degenerate

claps

2004-11-20T14:56:12Z

mad crazy night last night, there were still like 10 people at my house at 3 in the morning, lol and i went to sleep at 4 and aj, robin and tj were still here, all passed out on the couch. the pizza dude came and smoked with us, that was one of the most random events of my life. haha i love my house